i didn't want to write anymore but i dreamt of you again last night.
we were going somewhere, a trip to the beach.
but you felt distant. it felt like you just went with me because i wanted you to come with me, not because you really wanted to go with me.
again, the feeling of uncertainty that i felt when i was seeing you before was evident in my dream. that uncertainty, that sadness.
and now i realize, was that how you felt that time, when we started seeing each other?
did you just go on seeing me because you saw that i wanted to be with you? to see you more? that i wanted you now?
did you just force yourself to go out with me because you didn't have the guts to say no to me that time?
was that it?
were there any feelings for me at all?
