i saw your car again a couple of weeks ago.
and i was able to somehow fight the sadness that slowly tried to creep in.
i've been trying to move you at the back of my mind now.
i've been trying to take little steps.
i've been trying to move on.
***
something made me sad today.
and after all the times that i tell myself and other people that i'm not mad at you for what happened, today was the first time that i put the blame on you.
***
you weren't the reason why i got sad today.
but you had a big chunk of a part why that sad thing happened.
yes, you.
this time, i resent you for what you did to me.
it wasn't good.
for me and for a lot of people.
