i'm slowly disarming myself....
i'm pushing myself to face the sun...
i'm trying to open my eyes
to the very blinding light of truth.
i'm slowly opening my hands,
loosening my grasp
when i haven't even
held you enough yet.
i still hope.
i still believe..
i can silently and secretly wait.
still.
i am hurt.
i am sad.
but i find myself blind
even with open eyes.
all because of this heart
that loves you.
